Sooo…….
We have 2 days left of school, and then Friday is GraduationCelebration!!! (lol since it’s not like an official Graduation we have to call it a “Celebration,” but it’s basically a graduation). I know it’s just 8th grade, and we’re only moving up to high school, but a lot of people are leaving next year so I’ll probably be crying afterwards. But that’s okay because then it will be……
SUMMER!!!! Personally, I’m very excited for this summer. I’m starting off the summer with a couple weeks of doing nothing (though I’ll probably be spending every day during those weeks on the treadmill or something like that…), and then I’m going to spend a week at a choral camp at ECU, which I’m very excited for. Also, starting in like mid-June, I’m going to be Cecille (one of the French maids) in Annie!! It’s with our church again, so a lot of the people from Fiddler On The Roof are in this cast, so it should be lots of fun again! Then, starting in mid-July, I’m going to be in the ensemble in All Shook Up!!!!!! I’m super excited about this one, especially since I originally wasn’t in the cast. But now I am, and I’m super excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
(I know I was pretty redundant vocabulary-wise, but I’m too brain-dead to really concentrate on making my life sound interesting 
) The really good part about being in this show, though, is that I’m going to get lots of exercise from all the dancing (8 hours a day for 4 weeks!).
Lately, I’ve become really concerned with my weight. Especially in the last year, I’ve put on quite a lot of weight for a young teenager. I realize I’m not the only person going through this (I actually have friends who are going through similar issues), but I just really need to vent to somebody, and whenever I try to talk to my family, they tell me that I’m doing it to myself and only I can keep myself from gaining weight (which I know is true but I don’t need to hear it again and again), and when I try to talk to my friends they just tell me that I’m skinny and I don’t need to worry, but the truth is most of them are skinnier than I am, with abs and everything. I realize that since I’m really tall for my age, I will be a few pounds heavier than most of my friends, but if you compare me to the average weight of someone, say, two years older than me and closer to my height, it’s not pretty. And what doesn’t help is that my arms and everything from like my chest up is still thin, but everything from the chest down is all jiggle and fat. So like if I wear a loose tank top and jeans (which I do wear most days for this reason), you can’t really see the fat, which only adds to the “You’re not fat you’re skinny” comments. I’m not obese or anything but being a dancer (somewhat, anyways), it’s not pretty when you can see my legs jiggling while I’m dancing. It’s rather disgusting actually. I would really like to be able to wear shorts and fitted shirts and not feel super self-conscious all the time by the end of the summer, if not sooner. I’m going on a diet starting Saturday (my grandparents are here until then and I’d really rather not get them involved since I’m already having enough of a hard time getting my parents to understand why I want to diet). I’m not eating junk food, and except for breakfast I’m basically eating salads and vegetables. And I’m also going to be using WiiFit and our treadmill a ton and hopefully depending on how hot it is (it’s been scorching hot here lately) taking jogs around the neighborhood. If anybody has any other suggestions, if you could comment that would be great!!
